Backwards thoughts, Future Tense

I've been doing things a little backwards. Instead of writing my thoughts, and getting them out of my head, I've been letting them sit and stew. Or, I just ignore them completely. I know better. I'm not going to experience any healing, or work through anything without the process. I lost two of the most important people in my life last May. My grandparents both passed, and I was in shock for a long time. It isn't like me to ignore my emotions, or not to work through things; being someone with chronic health issues, I rarely have the choice. Holding things in equals pain. For me, it manifests with migraines or fibro flares. More than usual. I do so much to improve my health, but my mental health is just as crucial. So, expect me here more often, spilling my thoughts into the internet. As if there isn't enough people doing that.